Browsing through my older posts, I came to realize that they have become so much more selfish. Everything in them is all about me, a series of endless and bottomless complaints. In effect, I became more selfish. I hate this part of my life. The part where everything seems to be wrong, and what I do always end up hurting someone.
This is not me. I was vibrant, carefree, sweet in my own way (as people around me would say). I march to no one else's drums, and I loved it. What have I done to get to this point? Another mistake? The same one, perhaps?
I used to be selfless. I know it. But lately all I think about is me and how I don't get enough of what I want. Is this supposed to be like this? Because if it is, I wanna go. No, not run. Just maybe take a step back in intention of taking 2 steps forward.
Like this sweet little dance we do. Don't you think we should change the music now?
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Monday, July 20, 2009
Anything I'm Not
I will never be, I will never be tall, no..
and I will never be, never ever be sure of it all
oh why's the world so cruel to me?
when all, all I ever wanna be was anything I'm not
give me a break, a little escape
I am so tired of being me
I wanna be free, I wanna be new and different
anything I'm not.
I will never be, I will never be you, no
I will always be, I will always be me, that I know
but oh, even though I'm happy being me
I want to get away from all this harsh reality
give me a break, a little escape
I am so tired of being me
I wanna be free, I wanna be new and different
anything I'm not
--Lenka
PS : it almost feels like she was feeling the exact same way I am. Then again, this is just a song.
and I will never be, never ever be sure of it all
oh why's the world so cruel to me?
when all, all I ever wanna be was anything I'm not
give me a break, a little escape
I am so tired of being me
I wanna be free, I wanna be new and different
anything I'm not.
I will never be, I will never be you, no
I will always be, I will always be me, that I know
but oh, even though I'm happy being me
I want to get away from all this harsh reality
give me a break, a little escape
I am so tired of being me
I wanna be free, I wanna be new and different
anything I'm not
--Lenka
PS : it almost feels like she was feeling the exact same way I am. Then again, this is just a song.
Labels:
Song of The Day
Monday, July 13, 2009
Eternal Sunshine of The Spotless Mind
--Alexander Pope
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Piece of Mind
Thursday, July 2, 2009
Hatred
It's like an itch all over my body and I don't know where to scratch. Like a failed spell, all I've burned was my own energy.
Really exhausting and unfair.
Really exhausting and unfair.
Labels:
Piece of Mind
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